Is Everything Okay?
That is what I asked Dr. Wonderful (Hematologist-Oncologist) this week. I had my 6 month visit.
Usually, it goes well but this time when I asked her if everything was okay she said, “I don’t know.” The next 24 hours are a blur. She ordered an ultrasound but the Women’s Center made me get a mammogram, too. Mammograms are so painful for me.
The time leading up to the ultrasound seemed like weeks even though it was only 24 hours.
My initial reaction to everything sent me right back to where I was 6 years ago. I was so upset. I had a few minutes where the doubt began to creep in my mind. When I came home I told my husband about the ultrasound. Also, I told him that if I needed a biopsy that I was going to cancel….STOP RIGHT THERE…
Then I said, “NO…I’m not going to cancel anything. If I need to fight this battle again, I will not change my schedule.” He encouraged me that it was going to be okay.
While waiting for the appointment, I prayed, spent some time with my grandchildren, and listened to praise and worship music.
Kelsey apologized for the 6 year survivor flowers on the counter that were waiting for me when I came home from the appointment. I told her that we will celebrate the 6 year survival until we know different. That is the first time I had flowers waiting after a doctors appointment. It was so thoughtful of Kelsey and Josh and made me feel so awesome.
Is everything okay? I am thankful to report…YES, Yes it is. I was reminded this week of just how precious life is…just how undeserving I am to have this second chance…just how blessed I am by a supportive husband and daughters…just how blessed I am by my three grandchildren…and the promise in Joel 2:25…”God can restore what is broken…”
Is everything okay? YES!
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