Happy Mother’s Day to my mother in heaven!
I lost my mom to cancer in 2001. For a long time I absolutely hated Mother’s Day. Sitting in church listening to them honor mothers made me so angry. All I could think was that I didn’t have a mom. Mother’s Day was an unwelcome reminder of the emptiness that I carry in my heart where my mom use to live.
Grief Had Stolen My Freedom
Then one day I realized that my grief had stolen my freedom. It stopped me from loving freely. It stopped me from laughing freely. It stopped me from dreaming freely. It was a constant weight that I carried for years and until now, nobody ever knew. The sadness and the isolation was crippling. But it was time. Maybe I thought that holding onto the sadness was the same as holding onto her. Maybe it was. But it was time. It was time to let go of the sadness.
Time For Me To Be Free
Time for me to be free. So I prayed. I asked God to show me how. I asked Him to take away my sadness and He did. My healing has been slow but steady and I’m thankful. I still miss her everyday. I still think of her everyday.
She was smart, strong, beautiful, hard working, dedicated and honest. She was my mom. She was always there for me until she couldn’t be there anymore. I will be forever grateful for everything that she instilled in me. I am thankful that she taught me how to be a lady by being one herself. She taught me how to be honorable by living a honorable life. She taught me how to give by being a giving person. She taught me how to live by living a full and happy life. Thank you mom for leading by example. I miss you everyday.
Love lives forever.
(I want to say a special thank you to my friend, Tonja for sharing her heart and her story. May we all remember those who are deeply missing and even grieving their Mother on this Mother’s day weekend.)